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  The firefighters had also marred the pristine snow around the entrance of the café where the glass door had been broken for entry. He only hoped that when Mills arrived to give his report he and the other deputies might have found some prints somewhere in the general area that could help lead to the suspect.

  It was just around noon that Larry showed up, not only with his own report but with a handful of others from the deputies who had been on scene.

  “Tell me something good,” Cameron said as he gestured Brooks into the chair across from his.

  Larry winced and placed the written reports on Cameron’s desk. “Wish I had something good to say. The only real piece of evidence we discovered were boot prints leading away from the café.”

  “From where to where?” Cameron asked, hoping this was finally the break they’d been waiting for.

  “From the back of the café to the street. Unfortunately the street had already been plowed and we lost the prints there.”

  “So, whoever was responsible headed toward Main Street. Do we know what size the boots were?”

  “Ten and a half or eleven...and wide width with heavy tread. I’d guess our perp is between two hundred and two fifty pounds. Definitely not a woman’s boot.”

  “And a fairly good-sized man.” Cameron blew out a sigh. “What about tread pattern?”

  “I checked with three of the local stores and most of the boots sold in each of them bear the same kind of tread. It’s a common boot sold in the area.”

  “Of course it is,” Cameron said with frustration. “We aren’t any closer to finding this guy than we were when Candy Bailey was murdered and what scares me more than anything is that I think he’s at his breaking point. The clock is ticking for our next victim.” And he was scared to death that the next victim would be Mary.

  At three forty-five that afternoon, with no more clues coming to light, Cameron walked into the school to pick up Matt. The boy’s face wreathed in a big grin at the sight of Cameron and it was at that moment Cameron knew he could love this boy as his own.

  “Hey, Sheriff Evans,” Matt said as he grabbed his book bag from a hook near the door of the room. “I told Mrs. Perry that you’d be here right on time. I told her you were the dependable kind.”

  Cameron nodded to the teacher who smiled from her position at her desk. “I wasn’t worried about it,” she replied. “Even if you’re a few minutes late I can always use the extra time to grade a few papers.”

  Matt sidled up next to Cameron. “I’m ready when you are. Thanks, Mrs. Perry,” he said.

  Cameron nodded to the teacher and then the two left the building and got into the car. “Everyone asked me about the fire today,” Matt said, buckling himself in. “It was cool until lunchtime and then I got sad and I couldn’t help it. I started to cry.” He shot a quick glance at Cameron, as if to gauge his reaction to Matt’s confession.

  “Sometimes you just get so emotional you can’t help but cry,” Cameron said, keeping his gaze on the road. “Do you know why you were crying?”

  Matt fidgeted in his seat. “It’s just weird, you know, that my real dad is basically a monster who has killed women who I liked and now wants to kill my mom. I just got a little freaked out, you know scared that maybe I’ll grow up and be like my dad. Anyway, Mrs. Perry sent me to the counselor’s office and we talked.”

  “Did it help?” He shot a quick look at the boy.

  Matt nodded. “Mr. Wheeler talked to me about nature and nurture stuff and that my dad was just a blip in my life and I’m more likely to be like my mom and the men in my life now...more like you.” Matt turned his head and looked out the side window. “Most of the time I pretend you’re my dad.”

  Cameron’s heart squeezed tight and for a moment no words would form in his head. Sheer emotion nearly overwhelmed him. If he could ever conjure up a son in his imagination, it would be a kid like Matt. “You know I’m always here for you, Matt,” he finally managed to say. “If you ever need to talk about something, I’m available.”

  Thankfully at that moment he pulled up in front of the café. “Are you coming in?” Matt asked him.

  Cameron shut off the engine. “I believe I will. I haven’t had lunch so I guess I’ll grab an early dinner.”

  Before Cameron could get out of the car Matt laid a small hand on his arm. “Thank you for going back into the fire to get Twinkie. That was the bravest thing anyone has ever done for me in my whole life.”

  Cameron smiled. “Your mother has done some pretty brave things for you, too.”

  “I know, I’m lucky to have both of you in my life.” With those words Matt exited the car. Cameron was slower getting out, his head racing with thoughts of Mary and Matt.

  There was no question that Cameron wanted them in his life, not just temporarily, but forever. But there was also no question that he’d felt Mary distancing herself from him the moment after they’d made love.

  She’d only been under his roof last night because her place was uninhabitable. It certainly hadn’t been a choice she’d made eagerly with her heart. Once her place was ready for her, she’d go back.

  He also had a terrible fear that once Jason McKnight and anyone else involved with the crimes was no longer a threat, Mary Mathis would find some fine cowboy to hitch her star to, and Cameron would simply be the man who had awakened her to a future of possibilities.

  Chapter 14

  The first time Mary saw her living room she felt as if she’d been sucker-punched. The actual event of the fire felt like a bad dream that had occurred in the middle of the night. In the light of day, she saw how quickly, how easily the fire might have spread, how easily she might have been trapped and died in her attempt to get her son out of his room and to safety.

  Evil. She felt it getting closer with each day that passed. It was an evil that she’d never felt before, not even in the years she had lived with Jason. This evil had deepened and matured over time. It was no longer an impulsive, alcohol-driven rage, but rather one that had patience and cunning.

  She’d spent only a few seconds staring at the fire damage and then had gotten to work in the café. The breakfast rush was busy, with the main topic of conversation the fire that had taken place in the back rooms.

  Everyone was sympathetic. Even George Wilton, who for the first time ever had no complaints about his coffee or his breakfast.

  She realized by now that most of the people in town knew that the suspect was her ex-husband, but nobody mentioned it to her and for that she would be forever grateful.

  The lunch rush was just as busy, with people coming and going, wanting the inside information of the fire and any other gossip that might be floating in the air.

  The brightest spot in her day was when Matt came in, followed by Cameron. As Matt raced to the back room to see the damage, Cameron sat on one of the counter stools.

  “Drinking or eating?” she asked.

  “I’d like a burger and a scotch, neat.”

  She smiled. “I can help you with the burger but you’ll have to go to the Cowboy Corral or someplace else for the scotch.”

  “I was afraid you’d say that. Guess I’ll take a burger and fries and a vanilla milkshake.”

  She nodded. “I’m assuming last night yielded no new clues.”

  She could tell that he hated that she’d asked and that he hated even worse his reply. “Nothing except the possibility that our perp wears size ten or eleven in snow boots with a tread pattern on the bottom that is common to most snow boots sold in the state.”

  “At least with that information you can rule out small-footed men.”

  “What size shoe did Jason wear?”

  “A ten and a half.” She leaned slightly forward, allowing her to catch his familiar scent. “I feel it, Cameron. I feel him getting closer with every minute that passes. He’s evil, pure and simple. When we were married he swore he’d make me pay if I ever left him, he promised that he’d kill me and now he’s doing just that and he won’t
be happy until I’m finally dead.”

  She’d had a horrible sense of impending doom that she’d been unable to shake since awakening to the blazing flames in her living room the night before. She felt as if the end game could occur at any moment and her greatest fear was that after all these years Jason would ultimately win.

  “Mary. I’m not going to let that happen. You have to trust me.” There was a burning determination in Cameron’s eyes that she desperately wanted to believe, but he was only one man and at the moment Jason seemed so omnipotent.

  “I’m going to see you to work each morning and I’m going to take you and Matt to my house each night. When you aren’t here surrounded by people, I’m going to be stuck on you like white on rice,” he said.

  She smiled at his silly cliché. “Let me go place your order.” She left the counter and went into the kitchen where Rusty and Junior were working side by side on prepping for the dinner rush.

  Minutes later she served Cameron his meal and then moved away from him, not wanting anyone to see her lingering around him. It was certainly probable that Jason or whoever was working for him knew she and Matt were staying at Cameron’s place, but there was no reason to give them the idea that it was anything except professional safekeeping, especially after the fire.

  Thankfully, for the past eight years of being in Grady Gulch Mary had never shown any overt romantic interest in any man, although she’d certainly had plenty of the single cowboys hit on her.

  There had been some speculation about her and Cameron, the waitresses had even teased her about it. But nobody knew anything beyond the perception that the two of them shared a deep friendship. Nobody knew about that morning in her bed, when he’d made love to her so exquisitely, when he’d breathed life into a lifeless body and soul and made her believe in love and happiness once again.

  However, at that moment she’d believed that it would just be a matter of hours, at the most a day or two, before Cameron would have Jason behind bars and she could continue her life without fear. She didn’t believe that anymore.

  Now her constant companion was a kind of fear she’d never known before. She suspected each and every man who entered her café doors, had learned to be suspicious of every crackle of a tree limb, each unusual noise that might reach her ears. She didn’t like the woman she was becoming, afraid to love, afraid to care about the people who had been in her life for the past eight years.

  Thankfully the dinner rush kept her busy and shoved all troubling thoughts from her mind. Matt spent his time working on his homework at a table in the corner and then playing a handheld video game until they could leave.

  When closing time came gratitude sprang through her as Cameron walked through the door, ready to take her and Matt back to his place. He looked tired and stressed, but also like a safe barrier to ward off evil.

  “Everything okay this evening?” Cameron asked once they were in his car.

  “Fine. Of course, the fire was the hot topic—excuse the pun,” she replied.

  Matt laughed and Cameron cast her that slow, sexy grin that exploded a fireball of heat in the bottom of her belly. She didn’t ask him what, if anything, he and his deputies had come up with during the afternoon and evening. She feared his answer would be the same as it had been when he’d come in to eat...basically nothing.

  The conversation on the drive back to Cameron’s consisted of Matt’s school-day adventures, the fact that the plows had done a great job clearing the roads and how much Twinkie had probably missed them all during the long day.

  As they walked into Cameron’s front door, Matt was greeted by Twinkie, who danced and jumped on his new owner as if unable to get enough of him. After a quick visit outside, Matt and Twinkie headed for the guest bedroom he was temporarily calling home.

  Cameron motioned Mary to the sofa. “I’m about to have that scotch I mentioned earlier today. Would you like something to drink?”

  “You have any wine?”

  “A bottle of red.”

  She nodded. “A glass of red wine sounds heavenly.”

  As he left to go into the kitchen she leaned her head back against the sofa and closed her eyes, fighting against a wave of discouragement.

  For the first time in her life she wished she had a best friend, somebody who knew her entire history and lived in another town. She would have sent Matt to them, away from this place of danger and tension, away from the man determined to own him.

  She wished she had a best friend who she could talk to about her conflicting emotions where Cameron was concerned. She wished she had somebody to confess about their bed time together and how those magical moments in his arms had only managed to confuse her more.

  But throughout the time before she’d landed in Grady Gulch she’d traveled light and stealthily, not making friends, not allowing herself any close acquaintances.

  She knew that much of the latest gossip was about the fact that the number one suspect in the fire and the murders was her ex-husband, although nobody had said anything to her face. Except George Wilton, who had finally had the temerity to say something to her about it.

  “So, sounds like you married a real bastard,” he’d said as he was finishing up his dinner.

  “Something like that,” Mary had agreed and then left the old man to his meal.

  She now opened her eyes and straightened as Cameron entered the room, carrying a goblet of deep red wine and a smaller glass of amber liquid.

  He eased down next to her and handed her the glass of wine. She tried to ignore the scent of him that smelled like home and security. “Ah, this is just what I needed,” she said before taking a sip and then setting the glass carefully back on the coffee table. “Actually, what I probably need is to chug the whole bottle.”

  He grinned at her. “You can do that if you want. You’d be safe here...and drunk, but I wouldn’t want to think about the headache you’d have tomorrow.”

  She picked up her glass again and took another sip of the wine. “I’ve never been much of a drinker.” She stared at the deep red liquid. “Drinking is dangerous when you’re keeping secrets. You have a little too much, talk a little too much and suddenly you’ve said more than you intended to say and perhaps put yourself and your son in danger.”

  “It must have been tough, believing you were running from the law, afraid to make friends with anyone or stay in one place for long,” he said, his eyes the soft green-brown hue that threatened to pull her in and hold her there forever.

  “It was tough.” She broke eye contact with him to take another sip of the wine and then continued. “If it had just been me it wouldn’t have been so difficult, but I had Matt to consider.” Her mind swept her back to bad places, sleeping under bridges, hiding out in motel rooms that weren’t fit for humans. Afraid. She was always afraid of what would happen when her money ran out or if she was stopped by the police for any reason and they discovered she was wanted for murder.

  “It was horrible,” she finally said. “By the time we landed here in Grady Gulch I was both broke and exhausted. I stepped into the café carrying Matt. Violet Grady took one look at me and him and before I knew it I was staying in one of the cabins out back, working here in the café. Violet was babysitting Matt during my shifts.”

  She couldn’t help but smile as she thought of the eighty-two-year-old owner of the café. Violet Grady had been a strong, opinionated woman whose husband had built the café that she’d kept running years after his death at the age of seventy-seven.

  “She never asked me a single question about where I’d come from,” Mary said. “She told me she didn’t care much where people had been, that it was where they were going that mattered.”

  Cameron smiled. “That sounds just like Violet. She was definitely a character, but had a heart of gold.”

  Mary’s smile faded and a new grief swept through her. “I had three wonderful years of working for Violet before she came to me and told me she was terminally ill and didn’t have long t
o live. Since she had no children and no family left, she considered me and Matt her only family. She wanted to leave everything to me, but I refused. Violet was nothing if not persistent. We finally came to an agreement that I’d buy the café from her for five hundred dollars.”

  Mary looked at Cameron incredulously. “A paltry sum for a future for me and my son.”

  “Violet didn’t need your money. Despite the fact that she lived in the back quarters of the café and dressed from clothes she got at the thrift store, she was an extremely wealthy woman. She loved you and Matt. She once told me that she thought the two of you were a gift from God, the daughter and grandson she’d never had. You should have taken what she had to give. She wound up leaving her fortune to a pet humane society.”

  “That’s a great place for it to go. She changed my life by selling me this café for a pittance, gave me the hope of a future for me and my son and I’ve tried to honor her memory by the way I run the café.”

  He touched the back of her hand. “You’ve done a fine job honoring her and you’ll continue to do so for as long as you want.” She started to pull her hand away from his, but he tightened his grip, his eyes holding a wealth of emotions that both thrilled her and frightened her a little bit.

  “Mary, there’s something I need for you to know,” he said. “I’m in love with you. I think I’ve been in love with you since the first time I walked into the café and saw you there. When this is all over I want you in my life, I want you and Matt as my family.” The words tumbled from him in one long breath, as if he’d been holding them in for a very long time and couldn’t halt their escape.

  Mary pulled her hand away from his, her heart thudding the rhythm of uncertainty. She wished he hadn’t spoken the words aloud, at least not now...not yet. She wished he hadn’t basically thrown the ball of their future relationship into her court. She wasn’t ready for this. She wasn’t sure she was ready for him.